This morning I attended a funeral. Today was a time to mourn and show love and support to dear friends. It was pretty hard to go to. Chris' closest friends...his wife passed away from Lupus. And I haven't attended a funeral since I was 5-my grandpa's. That was the hardest funeral I had ever had to go to and I think going at such a young age, made me really never want to go to another funeral again. But after going today, I realize that going to a funeral is IMPORTANT! No matter how hard, how difficult it is, I really needed to be there. And like the pastor said, funerals are the most difficult things to go to but have great rewards..as in blessings. Just hugging Chris' friend and his late wife's mother, just showing them my heart was pretty big for me.
You see, when I was small, I was extremely close with my grandpa. I was his "princess". And he spoiled me rotten. He took me and my cousin everywhere, from Disneyland to Knotts Berry Farm. He bought us some incredible antique collections of Madame Alexander dolls and Vintage Pooh figurines. That funeral pretty much shocked me at such a young age. Young minds have such a hard time processing death. It really is hard to understand.
I sat there today at this funeral crying and could not stop. Thoughts of my dear friends who have lost their children, spouses, relatives, parents and to those that almost lost their children. And thoughts about cancer...just how many friends of mine have had it, struggled through it, overcame it and those who lost battles to it. Funerals make you think about your present time and how much time you have left here on earth. How much time you have with your children, your loved ones...we just don't know when our time is up. Such RAW feelings to process.
So today is a hard day. Hard day to now work, take care of the kiddies when I am such an emotional sap. But it made me realize the importance of time. The importance of spending time with them. Taking pictures, videos, enjoying every second with everyone in your life. And appreciating it all..IMMENSELY. And in turn, today is a GOOD day! Because it is ONE more day I have with my family, friends, loved ones. And now I am off to enjoy them.